will I ever find someone who really loves me? I have had two bad marriages so far.

Randa,
Because you are a woman born in the year of the Tiger (in your case you are Water Tiger), your character is not suited for marriage. It could also be that you had married incompatible men. Only 2020 and 2021 will be your extremely lucky years. This year you will have a moderate luck. You may even find a good man this year. Think confidently.