Career and love

I'm born in the year of horse, January 1979.

The last 3 years from 2017 - 2019 had been extremely difficult for me both in family and career aspects. I had an accident in 2017 due to family pressure and my career had been extremely unstable since the accident. Because of the extreme difficulty my family has put me in, I had stopped communicating with them. My career has never picked up since and every year, I changed my job. Because of the accident, I had mobility issues, although recovered, there were long term residual physical deficits and I feel emotionally down because of that.

I was hoping the year 2020 will shed some light for me after 3 consecutive years of suffering, both emotionally and physically. However, I read that the 2020 rat year is going to be worst of all years in the 12 year cycle, and I do not think I have anymore capacity to endure the suffering. Also, at the age of 41, I do not want my love life (not that I have any cause I'm single) to be halted if I were to meet anyone or wanting to get married in 2020. At the age of 41, I'm not young anymore and I never had the opportunities to meet anyone with a peace of mind due to ongoing family issues for the past many years.

Please advise. Life has been extremely tough for me since 2017.