I'm a female dragon born in 12th June 1988 around 11:45-11:55 a.m in Jakarta,Indonesia

I always find it difficult to find a love...
Always get multiple failed in love attempt..
And the last time ( 2 years ago ) ,my ex just left me without any explanation & get blocked by him
Since then ,i become more pessimistic about love...
And now i'm already 30 ,will i find a love/my soulmate and when ?
Cos lately ,i have to many failed attempt after my last breakup