Female Tiger who wants to restore love with a male pig

I am a female tiger and I've been with a male pig for 6 years. We struggled a lot with communication, entitlement, and me feeling like he lacked appreciation for me throughout the relationship. A few months ago I asked to date other people because I just felt like the relationship wasn't progressing( I wanted to get married and I felt like he wasn't ready to commit to me in that way), which caused a lot of friction. I also felt very hopeless and like I needed to explore what else was out there. I never planned for him to know details but one night i just kind of revealed everything to him and he is upset because he felt that I wasn't totally honest with him during this time. I really love him and want to work things out but he has been very stern about not continuing the relationship and just wants maintain a friendship with me because he feels like the trust was broken. He still continues to invite me to family functions, still continues to visit my family, calls me to see how I'm doing every once in a while, and will invite me to hang out with him occasionally which I find strange because it seems almost impossible to become friends with some you love and have been with for so long immediately after a breakup. It is a very hard to move forward when he still so active in my life. Should I try to maintain a friendship with him although it is very difficult for me because I still have such strong feelings towards him or should I just move forward