I am born 06/17/94

Around what age are my best years going to be? When am I going to enjoy a good job and boyfriend? Timings are important because I seem to feel depressed lately. All things start well and soon fall apart. THis guy I like seems to have a mate or is very distant. I was about to get a job, but they were just taking too long with their final arrangements. When I try to win a contest I stay at the top and they finally give the award to someone who has "been chosen by luck", not by who did best. I am also curious in what areas my career could be lucky coz I write texts for songs and yet I study finance?