Born July 5 1996, Will things get better? Will I be happy? I just want things to start looking up.

This year has been a horrible rollercoaster. The times I was down I was really down. The things I could control like my studies went well I worked very hard. My relationships with people was interesting I've learned a lot. I actually thought I found someone close to the one...The things I couldn't control really went terribly. My relationships with my family is extremely rocky due to them holding me back for their own satisfaction.So a few months ago I packed up and left. I couldn't stay there because they really hurt me. I moved in with a close relative and I'm having difficulty getting back on my feet. I just want to have the things I want and I'm going to work for it. It's just everything seems like it's working against me. Honestly I just want to find love and be loved and just be happy. I really just want to be happy. -y.s