Is my relationship with Nasrul will last a long time until the level of marriage?

I have been married twice, failed everything, I highly saturated and tired of looking for true love, some men who offer love, but I still feel afraid, but this time my relationship with men under the age of eight years of her with me, my love her, at this point I doubt again,the relationship we're petrified,rarely met, to be honest I want to maintain this relationship, but I fear nothing